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Random Prompt: Do you lie to yourself?
 
I try not to but I am sure I do. I have enough difficulty accepting me without decieving myself. I am certainly guilty of being surrounded by a self created mask and sometimes put too much faith in that. I am sure there isn't a person breathing who knows the me I hide from the world, I am not even sure I know who that person is either. Is that lying to myself... probably!
 
Quote of the Day
 
In mathematics you don't understand things. You just get used to them. --- Johann von Neumann

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Creative Journal: 5th December 2008

Life without love is like a tree without blossom or fruit --- Khalil Glibran

Phrase - worry not about love, for it cares only for you

Random - shadow Daniel Boon by Benet

Title - Forbidden Dreams

First line - I have fallen, so you can lift me up

Poetic line - How the old mountains drip with sunset - Emily Dickinson

Projective Identity - on of a pair of contact lenses

Wordbank - British, video games, candy, plane, pig

Theme - sensual scene involving food

AWAD - hornswoggle (HORN-swog-uhl) v. to cheat, hoax or decieve.

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Creative Journal: 4th December 2008

Art by Luis Royo

Quote - It's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see. --- Henry David Thoreau

Wordbank: fear, scream, blue, ocean, scream.

Phrase: Time makes my body weak, but my love stronger.

Title: My First Grey Hair

First line: No one has given him/her/me this much before.

A Word a Day: flummadiddle (flum-uh-DID-l) n. nonsense, something worthless.


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Creative Journal: 3rd December 2008

Quote - There are no rules of architecture for a castle in the clouds --- Gilbert K. Chesterton

Title - Drink from my Poison Cup

A Word a Day - Discombobulate (dis-kuhm-BOB-yuh-layt) v. to disconcert or confuse

Theme - Hands

Wordbank - rewind, damaged, blood, kinky, beauty

Phrase - I'll turn your tears to roses.
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Creative Journal: 2nd December 2008

Quote

Deep into the darkness peering, long i stood there wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared dream before.

Edgar Allan Poe

AWAD

skidaddle (ski-DAD-l)

verb; to leave hurriedly.

Title:

The Rose of Love

Word bank

love, poison, time, romance, curses.

Phrases

dormant tree; flowers fold; new-built city

Poetic Form:

Terxa Rima Sonnet

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Aftermath

After the war lands list lifeless and grey
The men return like melodic zombies.
Battle weary and beaten like dulled clay
All victims of conflicts between the Tshombes.

The women have no hope in their soulless eyes
Devoid of emotion, no will to care.
The cruel loyalty of endless sighs
As loved ones fail to appear, none will share.

A child in confusion is war's toll.
Father slain by a bullet, left to die.
Mother raped by grief, it's taken her soul.
Such anger breeds inside, the next war cry.

When will the lessons of peace be given
As anger for vengeance remains in mind.
The rage for war is endlessly driven.
Are we destined to remain always blind.

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Just a Boy

Stood beneath the station clock I wait,
Make-up fixed as my nerves start to tremble.
Apprehension inside growing as I watch the gate
As the crowd for the next train assemble.

Eyes slowly move to the clock, quarter to eight.
I wonder if the ad in the paper was right,
And then hope that his train isn't too late.
The letters exchanged, yet still I feel this fright.

'Pull yourself together, girl, it's only a date!'
A brief hello at a nearby pizza bar.
The letters it seemed this was our fate,
He's just a boy, me a girl, we could go far.

Why worry if the need for love we sate?
Oh, why can't it be easy to find the perfect mate?

© Jem Farmer 2008, all rights reserved.

Let Me In

Fur wet and matted
From the incessant rain
His cry, a soulful 'meow'
'Let me in'

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Where It Was Dark

The lights of city life are drowning the stars
Endless droning from the slow moving cars
I long for the country, the song of the lark
Where silence reigned and it was dark.

The stars were alive with the radiance of day
As the owls called softly on the hunt for prey
Lost to the mayhem of city life
I want freedom from the rat-race and strife.

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So Far From You

The seas that ebb and flow between two hearts
That loved with passion, yet there lies a grudge.
The eyes of jade shine as envy imparts
Irrational thoughts like a subtle nudge.
No road or bridge can cross the growing gap
Built by the green eyed demon of jealous rage.
Bitter, twisted, love lies as useless scrap
As truth is not enough to turn the page.
The lack of trust has left nothing to save,
Our love has gone, lost to envy's desire.
I look at you, my eyes, empty, still crave.
Alas, your demon has slain my heart's fire.

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Dead Ends

The walls of thought are closing in my mind
There is no doorway out that I can find
I'm sealed in confusion like a trapped rat
No light to see as in darkness I'm sat
A dream of freedom brings a false message
I seek the answers, there is no passage
I cry in grief, then in frustration, shout
'Hide! Suicide is the only way out!'

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Prompt: Suicide is the only way out

     from: Suicide Solution by Ozzy Osbourne

       

The Flowers of Darkness

As dusk descends oblations bloom
In sacred room.
To gods of night,
For their delight.

The sweetest scents illuminate
The holy state
For us to see
The path to thee.

The flowers guide the Pagan child
With spirit wild
By lunar light
In sacred flight.

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Trembling Thought (First Draft)

The cerements choke ideas within mind's spark
As stifled thoughts conflict with ethics and truth
A fight for freedom leaves emotions stark
So age and wisdom find the lies in youth.

So leave the creative shackles grip behind
The liberty of dreams in years unfold
Release the psyche, deny thoughts that confined
Why wait for life to pass in truth foretold?

Open the doors to conscious streams you sought
Embrace the vision found in trembling thought.

© Jem Farmer 2008, all rights reserved.

My Prompts

Titles: 

1. Trembling Thoughts
2. The First Person
3. Destruction of Sparks
4. The Flowers of the Darkness

Word banks:

1. Farmer, glass pane, phone box, table
2. pianist, bottle cap, lawn, newspaper
3. athlete, car, nutcracker, kitchen
4. general, handkerchief, classroom, shawl

Opening Lines:

1. The pulse is beating strongly
2. I really have no idea what to tell you
3. Bloody good!
4. I can't believe you just said that